i'm swimming in a sea of you my sweet
love me with all your might
the sea is full of rips and tides
go in strongly and you'll survive

we both know it wont be easy
but we move in, with open arms
i'll grab your hand gently
then squeezing the the wrist
first i'll whisper my love softly
then scream it into the blank abyss

the day is over
the night has arrived
but i'm still here, standing by your side
walking out of the ocean
with our two legs

i feel as if you shut me out
but all i want is to bring you love
to rip it up from underneath
and then bloom you out from under the ground

close your eyes my dear
the sky is blue, i wont shed a single tear
i want you closer, so much closer
promise me on trying harder
i need you here in my time of need
you need me there in your time of need
i'll pick you up slowly

be patient for me
i'll give you my best
i'll give you my all
stay closer, so much closer

Sunday

it's mothers day and it's suppose to be a happy day for everyone. but of course not me. i didn't wish my mom a happy mothers day because i didn't want her to have a good one. i don't even want to go into detail why. i just want to get out of this town and start a new life, i'm not happy anymore and i don't even ave decent friends to care. i just want something good and new.

wednesday

school is catching up to me, only a couple of weeks left. i've never had a desire to not do anything in my life as strong as i have it now.

currently i am drawing an owl and listening to explosions in the sky. listen to that band, i swear so beautiful i love this music.

today keith came over and i made my killer tacos(nonmeat of course) and that was real nice, i enjoy seeing him and laughing. i just realized that this is like a diary to me. well i guess that's what a blog is, an online diary.

i'll leave you with this because i have work to do. till next time! <3

wednesday

have you ever just wanted to leave? just leave everything behind and take off with just one person or a few people? i've been wanting this lately, well more often then lately. i hate it here, i hate the feeling of uselessness. i want to do something, i want to move on. ugh, i don't even know how to explain it

thursday

i don't know if anyone could find this man unattractive. he should be in my life.
but anyways, i haven't gone to school for three days and tomorrow is friday also, my sisters birthday. free cake and ice cream i'm all down for it. the fact that next year my sister is going to be a teenager, i'm not down. having all of this alone time to think sucks. my head overflows with insecurities and it's not all that fun
so the past couple of days haven't been all that exciting to me, kind of sucky. we'll see where the weekend takes me though, hopefully things will turn around and the weekend will be great. (hey my sister wont be here, that already makes it good and it's only thursday!)

basically

i love keith, just throwing that out there :D and i love bon iver, it's really helping my mood right now, you have no idea. today i felt so low. i can't believe it. i need better people in my life and i NEED a job. it's ridiculous. i want to move out too. i hate feeling trapped under these walls. i am so hard on myself, i need to stop feeling sorry for myself because it's just bringing me down

but hopefully i'll start blogging on here more, if not i know for a fact i'll be on tumblr
salmonowl.tumblr.com

hello!

if you have a tumblr, you should follow me
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i'm on that like everyday so yeah
but i hope all is well (:

holy jesus

i totally forgot about blogger, i am sorry to say that i am absolutely addicted to tumbr, so if you see this, follow me!
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i love everyone thats reads this <3